Post by sakukoivu on Sept 12, 2005 16:45:46 GMT -5
Last night, I spread chaos over Valor's boards.
Today I am merely here with excuses and an apology. Firstly I would like to thank Z Master for giving me the opportunity to write this by un-banning me.
Secondly, I have been under tremendous stress lately, I just started college, as well as playing hockey, refereeing hockey and learning to drive. For the past several weeks I have been on a breaking point and unfortunately it was Valor that tipped me over the edge.
For those of you that don't know that full story of what set me off get ready. After Sizzler Brandon Bailey won the World Title. Now I as well as everyone else on this board has the same feeling when they feel they've won, they wknow it and can't wait for the results. Upon reveiw of the RP's as well as things told to me by other who will remain nameless, I had that feeling. After Sizzler was posted I saw Brandon won and figured ok, judgement call, owners liked his RP better, but some of those sources previously stated went on to say that "They screwed me" and stuff to that effect. To go into details would defeat the purpose of this apology. Andso, being told I should have won I was convinced of that two, and I presented my problem to Z and Hardcastle. They heard me through and tried to find a solution. Unfortunately, the proposed solution, as in my rematch and an eventual feud with Hardcastle subconciously was not to my liking. It staved off my anger for a while, but while I thought it was gone it was instead building. The reason I did not RP for my rematch was because I felt that if I lost with the best RP of my life, then I had no chance in hell of winning with an empty tank. Nonetheless I should've RP'ed, and while I did forget the deadline I blame myself for not being motivated enough to follow Valor following my loss.
On to my apology. Last night was a fury of pent up frustration, anger and stress, I regret the way it came out, where I feel I could have worked it out given time. Anyway, what is done is done, and now I am faced with the consequences. Brandon Bailey won the Valor title faire and square and I threw a hissy fit because I thought differently. it was Brandon himself that called me a child and made me realize that was exactly what I was being, a selfish, whiny child. I realize that both Sin City Saint and Immune mixed with a side of Rodney Paine have been bashing me since last night's incedent and I feel and know I deserve every word they spit at me. And just for the record, Immune, I do not think Valor is a crappy fed, I never had, I just merely know that it is not a fed for me.
Anyway, to Hardcastle, Z, Immune, and especially Brandon Bailey I am sorry for my rash actions last night. This will be my last post on Valor, and I know that it does not need me and will survive just fine, if not better without me. I hope you can forgive me, but if not, I understand. Good luck to all of you,
Saku.
Today I am merely here with excuses and an apology. Firstly I would like to thank Z Master for giving me the opportunity to write this by un-banning me.
Secondly, I have been under tremendous stress lately, I just started college, as well as playing hockey, refereeing hockey and learning to drive. For the past several weeks I have been on a breaking point and unfortunately it was Valor that tipped me over the edge.
For those of you that don't know that full story of what set me off get ready. After Sizzler Brandon Bailey won the World Title. Now I as well as everyone else on this board has the same feeling when they feel they've won, they wknow it and can't wait for the results. Upon reveiw of the RP's as well as things told to me by other who will remain nameless, I had that feeling. After Sizzler was posted I saw Brandon won and figured ok, judgement call, owners liked his RP better, but some of those sources previously stated went on to say that "They screwed me" and stuff to that effect. To go into details would defeat the purpose of this apology. Andso, being told I should have won I was convinced of that two, and I presented my problem to Z and Hardcastle. They heard me through and tried to find a solution. Unfortunately, the proposed solution, as in my rematch and an eventual feud with Hardcastle subconciously was not to my liking. It staved off my anger for a while, but while I thought it was gone it was instead building. The reason I did not RP for my rematch was because I felt that if I lost with the best RP of my life, then I had no chance in hell of winning with an empty tank. Nonetheless I should've RP'ed, and while I did forget the deadline I blame myself for not being motivated enough to follow Valor following my loss.
On to my apology. Last night was a fury of pent up frustration, anger and stress, I regret the way it came out, where I feel I could have worked it out given time. Anyway, what is done is done, and now I am faced with the consequences. Brandon Bailey won the Valor title faire and square and I threw a hissy fit because I thought differently. it was Brandon himself that called me a child and made me realize that was exactly what I was being, a selfish, whiny child. I realize that both Sin City Saint and Immune mixed with a side of Rodney Paine have been bashing me since last night's incedent and I feel and know I deserve every word they spit at me. And just for the record, Immune, I do not think Valor is a crappy fed, I never had, I just merely know that it is not a fed for me.
Anyway, to Hardcastle, Z, Immune, and especially Brandon Bailey I am sorry for my rash actions last night. This will be my last post on Valor, and I know that it does not need me and will survive just fine, if not better without me. I hope you can forgive me, but if not, I understand. Good luck to all of you,
Saku.
Come on...Let's hug it out bitch. 
LOL! Glad to see people are coming together again. 
